What is your Soul yearning to Express?

From as far back as I can remember my life has always been driven by some form of yearning.
 
A deep inner knowing that there was something that I was meant to be doing that I just couldn’t quite put my finger on.
 
This yearning has led me down many roads throughout my life, psychic mediumship development, healing, understanding the human psyche on a deeper level and meditation. All with the hope of being able to put my finger on what it is that I’m supposed to do. 
 
There seems to be within all of us a feeling that there is something that we have forgotten to do, you know that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you leave home and you can’t remember if you turned the iron off or not. 
 
A sense from deep within you that you said that you would do something but for the life of you, you just can’t seem to remember what it was.
 
What I have come to know and understand, and please note I do not know all, is there is no way that the story of the Universe and all of the mysteries that it holds can be known, are these few things.
 
We are more than just a physical lump of meat living this human experience, I have come to know and understand that we are infinite Beings who carry within us a spark of Divinity that connects us to All That Is. 
 
What is All That Is? It is many names for the one energy source, Divine Intelligence, God/Consciousness, Divine Mind, Christ Consciousness and so on, it is the Source that is the whole of this incredible Universe in which we are life forms that reside on a Planet that is orbiting through space.
 
It has long been believed that our Soul is an essence that is housed or contained within our Physical bodies.
When I heard this description from Neal Donald Walsch’s “Conversations with God” book it resonated with me on such a deep level.
 
The Soul is the essence of the Divine that holds that body together, the Soul cannot be contained, it cannot be limited and it can never be harmed as it is eternal, it always has been and it will always be now and forever. 
 
If the Soul can never be harmed then what is with all of the suffering that we have all endured throughout our lives.
 
This has really made me wonder about our human conditioning and our suffering, if the Soul can never be harmed then the pain that we experience is in some way a choice that we have made before arriving here. 
 
The Soul has come forth into this incarnation with the clear intent of having a human experience, an experience that will allow it the opportunity for growth, opportunities at each event, each pain, each hurt, each disappointment, judgement and criticism to remember who we really are. 
 
More than 15 years ago I saw this saying “We are not Human Beings having a Spiritual Experience, We are Spiritual Beings having a Human experience.” I have only just thrown out the cutting of this that I had, it was tattered and curled up around the edges as I have carried it with me wherever I have gone for that long.
 
Each time that I have felt disillusioned with this life I would take out that piece of paper and really consider what the essence of that meant to me.
 
If I am a Spiritual Being then I would have chosen to come into this life with intention, I would have gone from a realm of absolute unconditional love and unity, knowing that I was bringing all of the tools that I could ever need within me to carry out the mission that my life journey was to fulfil. 
 
As I am sure many of you have asked before my burning questions for such a long time have been “What is my Purpose” What am I here for” and “What is it that I am meant to be “doing.”
 
Each of us come into this human form with the orchestrated experiences that will provide us with the perfect environment to remember our gifts, our compassion, our love and our joy.
 
You have come into this life with the desire to express the voice of your Soul.
This may be to raise awareness for those that are less fortunate than yourself.
It may be that you have gone through a traumatic life event and you have the burning desire to be of assistance to those going through a similar journey.
You may feel the driving force to speak out for those who are too weak to speak for themselves.
It may be to bring the importance of looking after our Planet to anyone who will listen. 
You may have within you the urge to release your creativity into the world. 
Bringing children up in a loving and safe environment so that they can be free to discover who they really are.
Treating people with kindness and respect regardless of their religion, race, colour and sexual orientation. 
Perhaps you have the knowing within you that every person deserves to be heard and you patiently sit for hours and allow others to purge to you. 
The list is literally endless.
 
Your Soul has a voice that wishes to be expressed, your only requirement is to get quiet enough so that you can feel and hear the message that is constantly being streamed to you.
 
Your Soul is patiently waiting for you to remember its existence, to remember that you are more than you think that you are, to remember that the Divine Intelligence of All That Is, is also within you.
 
The truest essence of who you are can never die nor can it ever be harmed.  
When you raise your awareness to that level it seems more probable to you then that perhaps the fear that you feel in going within, in expressing yourself, in asking yourself the big questions is unfounded and can be transcended.
 
Here are some questions that you can use to assist in connecting to and hearing what it is that your Soul wishes to express.
 
  1. If I could be the voice of my Soul what would I say ………………
  2. If I could feel the essence of my Soul what sensations would I feel in my body ………….
  3. What is the one thing that I would do if there were no limits……………….
  4. If I could change one thing in the world what would that be…………………..
  5. What am I not allowing myself to hear right now?
The greatest connections that I have felt to my Soul have been through meditation.
 
When you allow yourself the time to sit in quiet, focusing on your breath, music or an affirmation, after a period of time the mental mind becomes quiet, the thoughts slow down and from between the thoughts you begin to become aware of a presence, a presence that is not you, a presence that is not your thoughts, your past or your future it is just there waiting patiently for you.
 
It is from within this space that the voice of your Soul is the loudest, be sure to have a pen and paper handy so that you can write your questions above, the act of writing also distracts the mental mind and allows the insights and messages of your Soul to flow through. 
 
Blessings 
Kerryn
xxx
 
 
 

The Journey of Healing Ourselves

My story started in full strength at 21, although for all my life I have had a huge insight. The drive within me was just as profound. I felt within me this push and drive and real essence that there’s something that I am supposed to be doing other than this, and I just don’t know what it is.

One of the greatest insights was recognising that our only responsibility is to heal ourselves.

It is so important to work on our own self-healing and getting out of our own way.

If this feels like you, find out more about my story here.

Addictions and Acceptance

Where’s your mobile phone right now as you’re reading this sentence?

Is it in your hand? Maybe it’s right next to you as you are scrolling on your laptop.

If it’s within sight, welcome to the club.

The Internet is everywhere. Internet-based technology has begun to be included in almost all electronic devices. At times, it feels like these devices literally run the world.

The Smartphone addiction is real and it’s largely driven by our own need for worthiness and acceptance.

Watch this short snippet below for more about addictions, acceptance and connecting to the universe as a whole.

Do you hide your Spirituality?

You know this right??

The fact that you are here reading this right now would indicate that you have a level of awareness and understanding of what I’m about to share with you. 

Many of us have come into this Human experience with a definitive mission for our Soul’s greatest growth. 

Opportunities, people, places and situations that we have predetermined will be the best environment for us to awaken to our own Divinity.

Before we enter into our human life we come knowing that we have all of the resources within us to successfully achieve the expansion, awareness and the remembering that we are Spiritual Beings. 

A part of this undertaking is the agreement that we will all undergo a form of amnesia, meaning that we will forget that we are infinite Beings deeply connected to the Source of All That Is and that we are not separate from this Divine force. 

That means that on a Soul level we know that all of the traumas, the broken relationships, the pain and suffering that we endure we have chosen specifically so that in the moments of our greatest despair may find ourselves on our knees seeking the assistance of this Divine lovely force and remember who we truly are. 

Some of us remember early in our lives that there is something more to us than meets the eye.

We sense that there is a Higher Power that watches over us and guides us, some of you probably have even had experiences of being an Empath or naturally intuitive as you were growing up. 

You may have had a natural affinity to nature and could feel the energy of life that surrounds all of Mother Earths creations.

You may have have moments in your life of sensing or seeing Spirit.

You perhaps could walk into a room and sense the feelings of everyone in there. 

You could have like so many children arriving today been able to see colours and auras around people. 

Many of you may have even had imaginary friends who were in fact your guardian Angels or guides that assisted you through those periods in your lives. 

What then happens as we begin to show these traits, these inner knowings that cannot be explained by those who we live with and those who we spend our time with and we subconsciously begin to keep our knowingness to ourselves.

As you grow into an adult you have potentially learned from your childhood that it isn’t safe to express all that you perceive and know of the world around you.

You have possibly bought into this lifetime from past life experiences the remembering of percussion and even death at having expressed your gifts. 

So why then in this age of information technology where anything from chakras, to auras, to Angels, guides, animal medicine, psychic mediumship, spirit and all things woo woo do we continue to hide that side of ourselves.

I have met so many beautiful souls who have within them the capacity for so much intuitive insight yet they are too afraid to voice their views, their knowingness and their infinite wisdom.

From my own experiences as coming into this world as an extreme Empath and Intuitive and going to bed overnight watching Spirit walking past my bedroom door and visiting with me is this.

People are afraid of the of what they do not understand.

They themselves are sensing the power of the Divine within you, they are on some level recognising the Soul that you are and the further away from remembering their own Divinity that they are it causes an internal reaction within them of something in me is missing and that there is something in you that sees the truth of who they are.

If we take into consideration the idea that many of us without really knowing why or what it is feel on some level that there is something wrong with us, that there is something that we are meant to be doing or that we know on a deep soul level that our current choices and way of living is not serving the greater good of the Soul.

So when you are in contact with someone coming from that state in that moment there is a deep resonance with their own Soul, in that moment the person is recognising on a Soul level that they have forgotten who they are and can only sense the distance of perceived separation and while they may not be able to articulate this or process it on a logical and intellectual level they are recognising it intuitively. 

We are all afraid of judgement, we are all wanting to be accepted and validated by those around us and we are all wanting to “Fit in” with everyone else.

When you share your Divine guidance, your intuitive knowings and your Empathic feelings with another you are giving them the opportunity to remember themselves as a Spiritual Being.

When you offer healing to another or speak of your love of all things Angelic, you are in that moment being a conduit and a voice for the Divine loving intelligence of the Universe.

When you feel the fear and every fibre of your Being is telling you that it is not safe to speak consider this for a moment;

IN the moment that you have a deep knowing of someone or something you are in fact communing with your Soul self and the presence of the Divine.

If this is an energy that you are not always used to connecting with then it can feel like an extremely powerful presence running through your body and it is very easy in that moment to interpret this as fear.

When your body experiences excitement or fear the same energy is created within your body, you have in that moment the chance to move into fear thought based thinking or breathe into it and give thanks to the energy that is moving through you.

As soon as you do this you give yourself over to the unconditional love of the Universe and it then becomes about the Highest good of another and viola fear is dissipated.

Every time you feel the thoughts, feelings and words that want to move through you and you cut them off you are in that moment cutting yourself of from your Soul/Higher Self and from the Divine.

Now there will be times when another is not ready to hear what it is that you have to say and this is why you should always speak from your Heart.

Not from the need to be right or to show off how much you know (Yes this is from experience that I share this with you)

When you come from a place of kindness, compassion and love then all that you say and express will be wrapped in that essence.

When you express your knowingness with the intention of being a conduit of the loving force of the Universe for the wellbeing of others then it is delivered in a way that while perhaps not acknowledge on a human level it will absolutely resonate within that persons subconscious, their own intuition and on a Soul level. 

The truth of what you are saying will act as a soothing balm to their ears, it will reverberate throughout their body and while they may not be able to process the information in that moment it will certainly set the wheels in motion to open mindedness and seeing life in a different way.

When you stop the flow of your own Divine inner knowing and Spirituality it creates within your body a sense of loss, a feeling of wrongness and a more intense feeling of separateness from the world around you.

One of the greatest lessons that I have learned about my own Spiritual journey has been that I came into this life with a great deal of remembering. 

I now understand why I chose on a Soul level to travel down a dark path of suffering for a period of time where I turned my back on my spirituality and my knowingness.

It was during these years that I separated myself completely so that when the timing was right I could once more bring myself back in alignment and in doing so experience the full force and power of the Unconditional love of the Universe.

I remembered my own Divinity so profoundly that it healed me instantly from the pain that I had endured and it gave me the determination to never again quieten the voice of my Truth or my Spirituality. 

My perception completely shifted from fear of what others might say or how they might judge me to only being interested in feeling the loving presence of the Angelic, Spirit and the Universe.

In the moments that you squash that rising voice that wants to express itself through you, you are denying the truth of who you are.

You are denying the soul that you are interacting with the chance to express itself on a deeper level also.

I am also absolutely positive that you can recount many moments throughout your life where you have walked away from a situation and kicked yourself for not saying what was wanting to come forth from you.

I bet that there are hundreds of times when you thought that you should have picked up the phone or messaged someone and you didn’t only to find out that they were going through a really tough time.

I bet that you have experienced an urge to reach out and touch another who is in pain only to talk yourself out of it.

I am sure that there have been many times in your life when you felt an overwhelming sense of love and compassion for someone and the words to express were on the tip of your tongue and you didn’t express them to then wish later that you had of.

You are constantly being given nudges from the Universe at the exact moment in perfect Divine timing of when action is required, if we miss that moment it really does leave a sense of loss within us and that is because we have in fact missed a unique opportunity for our Souls to connect and commune as one.

So next time that you feel the urge to hide your spiritual self, your loving self, your true self, have a thought that you could potentially be denying yourself and another of a magical union of the Divine. 

Blessings
Kerryn
xxx

Trying to Be Someone You are Not

I’ve spent so much of my life striving.

  • Striving for better.
  • Striving for more.
  • Striving for acceptance.
  • Striving for perfection.

At times I have become so excited by my very own striving.

At times of rapid growth and expansion, the striving can amplify and surrender becomes essential in order to guide us through into who we are and who we are also becoming.

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Are you tired of continually head FKNG yourself?

Are you tired of continually head FKNG yourself?

Do I hear an AMEN, a HELL YEAH, a FCK YES and can you give me a HIGH FIVE!!!

OMG I am so not immune to this and it is something that I continually have to pull myself up on and thank god that I am still a work in progress and can continue to learn and grow as I go.

It frustrates me no end let me tell you when in the grip of the annoyingly negative ego mind. 

It has the ability to take you from feeling on top of the world to a babbling mess in the fetal position on the floor in less time that it takes to take a breath.

You know those moments when you have an awesome idea the creative juices are flowing all of the visuals are there for you, you are receiving insights into how you can move forward with your incredibly inspirational idea, it feels exciting and amazing and then BAMM the head FCK’s begin.

I can’t do that

No one will be interested in that

I am not good enough to pull that off

I don’t know enough 

I don’t have enough money 

I don’t have enough experience 

I’m not as good as so and so 

I’m not smart enough 

I’m not skinny enough 

I”m not pretty enough 

I’m not skilled enough 

No one will listen to me 

I won’t be successful 

I’ll look stupid 

I’m a fraud

Who do you think you are 

I’m too afraid

It’s not the right time

I can’t 

I can’t 

I can’t 

What if this and what If that happens.

You get the picture right and I bet that you know this feeling intimately.

This flows into every area of our lives and debilitates us in a way that I just think is down right cruel.

It can become so extreme that even being able to make the simplest decision becomes an excruciatingly painful experience as the fear of messing up rises its ugly head.

You see this is what I have come to know and understand about the Ego mind.

The Ego was once described by Wayne Dwyer as Edging God Out and I totally love this explanation.

If you think about it our Ego mind is the epitome of all things fearful and negative, it is everything that the essence of God/Divine/Spirit/Universe All That Is is not. 

I recently shared with all of the beautiful Souls that follow my work a new opportunity that has come up for me and that I have been dreaming of for a long time.

The moment that I put it out there publicly and I started to receive everyones beautiful congratulations and support the head FCK’s began to roll in.

I’m a fraud 

What if I fail and look like a fool 

I’m not cut out to do this

Who will want to come along to something that I run

I don’t have that much to offer

I’m not good enough 

What if let people down 

Every negative thought that you could possibly think of filled my whole mind and body.

I was in an extreme state of anxiety and an overwhelming state of fear. 

I wanted to delete my post and get the hell out of dodge. 

Each time that someone commented with their support I spiraled even further into head FCK Central.

It felt like I was trapped on a speeding train with no way of getting off.

AND the worst thing was, no one could stop the train and get me off but me.

I tried all of my usual affirmations to shift my thinking but each notification that popped up on my feed was like a hook the was dragging me further and further into my unworthiness.

Now don’t get me wrong I was incredibly grateful and blown away by all of the amazing messages of support and congrats that I was receiving it was just in that moment I felt completely as though I did not deserve them.

So what did I do, I ate some food to try and ease the horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach – nothing 

I had a conversation with my hubby and while he was very supportive – nothing.

I got myself out of the house and tried to distract myself – nothing.

Basically I was trying to numb and run away from the pressure that I could feel in my heart and the churning of my stomach.

By 5.30pm that afternoon close to tears I had had enough, I was beside myself with all of my shitty thoughts and I just could not seem to budge them.

As I sat looking at the clock thinking of how ridiculous this is and how much of my energy I had given away to all that was happening I decided enough was enough.

I knew I needed to shift this shift so I finally (DER) sent a request out to my beautiful Spirit team/Soul/Higher Self.

I sat there with full determination and said…

“Right, I am completely done with feeling this way and I am done with these thoughts, raise my vibes now and reveal to me the truth of this situation. And so it is! 

(Yes I do literally create affirmations and statements for every situation in my life)

So I headed out my door again to head to the shops, on the way down I began to feel the weight of my anxiety lifting from my body, I began to feel the energy of love moving into my heart space, I started to say out loud all of the reasons why I absolutely can do this, I reminded myself of all of the things on my spiritual journey that I have learned and all of the study and teachings that I have done and above all else I remembered my WHY.

Images flooded into my mind of all of the people that I have shared my knowledge with and helped and all of the reasons why I wanted to do this kind of work in the fist place.

IN that moment the decision that I made that I no longer wanted to be in a state of fear and my request to see things truthfully was the moment that I raised my vibes and my consciousness out of the continued loop that I had been in all day.

I shifted my focus from fear to LOVE. 

This whole situation really frustrated me I will be honest, I had literally wasted my whole day in a state of fear and negativity when it should have been spent celebrating something that I had been manifesting for a long time.

As with everything in life nothing is for naught and there is learning to be had in every situation. 

 

What did I learn?

I learned that I had the power to shift my perception and the moment that I chose do so from my heart was the moment that there shift began to occur.

I learned that the Ego mind really will grab hold of you whenever you feel fear, doubt and uncertainty.

Being aware of the negative thoughts in your mind does not always mean that you can easily shift them but it definitely gives you a greater chance of shifting your focus.

I recognised how much of my life force and energy was expelled throughout that whole day creating a story and a belief within my mind and my body that was complete and utter bullshit. 

I witnessed the loop that you can get stuck on and no matter how much you want to shift it if fear is the underlying emotion you will get stuck BUT you can get out of it if you raise your vibe.

Next time that you find yourself in this situation firstly:

  • Recognise the underlying thoughts 
  • Acknowledge that your Ego is only trying to keep you safe
  • Thank your Ego for bringing to your attention all of your fears
  • Then breathe into your Heart Space 
  • Hand on heart say “ I choose to move from fear to love show me the truth of this situation now” 
  • Ask yourself what is important to you about what you are about to do 
  • Come back to why you want to do this thing 
  • Ask yourself is it for your Highest Good 
  • Make a mental list of all of your best qualities 
  • Note all of the things that you do well.

Feel the presences of your Higher Power wrapping its arms around you in what ever form that may be.

CONGRATULATIONS you have successfully UnFCKD yourself.

What I recognised the most though was that on some level I was given the opportunity to experience that level of doubt and when I finally bought myself back to centre my belief in myself and what I do was even stronger than before.

The Power of Words and Our Story

Our words and stories are a large part of how we do our learning, reflecting and review of the world around us. Language itself is an important part of promoting understanding, feeling satisfied, fulfilled and connected to the universe as a whole.

Our words are tangible energy, that continue to exist long after they leave our mouth.

I invite you to consider your words today. Reframe as necessary (particularly the old internal voices) and join me for this short video about the power of words and our story.

Social Media Sharing

As spiritual workers I see a common trend of some resistance to the social media space. Afterall if we are empathic, how can we possibly deal with all the energy that runs around on Facebook?

On the flipside, the use of social media can be used as a vehicle to share the information that comes through from our higher selves.

All of the information is out there in the quantum field of possibilities. Every thought and idea is already out there. If you don’t share or act on ideas, you can guarantee within the week someone else could be onto it, sharing away with confidence while you wonder why you didn’t take action. Sound familiar?

What are your experiences using social media as an energy worker? I’d love to hear.

When women bond together they grow together

There is an undeniable power in the collective energy of women coming together.

In a community based society women work together, they raise their families together, they share their fears and their joys together and they grow together collectively as they each support and celebrate the other.

In today’s modern society of quick fixes and competition women aren’t traditionally supported in bringing this form of culture into our own communities and backyards.

This is however changing as the rise of the retreat is becoming more and more accessible to everyday women.

I think that we can all agree that the awakening of the feminine is a growing phenomenon that is becoming more the norm.

Women are recognising that the way in which we live our lives is not sustainable, women are beginning to stand up more and more for each other and the number of womens circles popping up all over the place are on the rise.

There is a strength that arises when a group of women come together with a collective goal in mind.

Women have a huge capacity for empathy, compassion and kindness along with having a natural intuitiveness as to what the other needs or is going through.

Now this is not to say that men don’t have the same potential for this and more and more men are beginning to explore this aspect within themselves as all continue to grow and evolve.

I see this more profoundly in a retreat setting.

Whether it’s a weekend or a week when women come together for the intention of healing, self discovery, awakening and expansion there is a bond of sisterhood that develops that remains with the group for many years to come.

I love more than anything sharing with people the capacity for self discovery and growth through meditation.

Meditation has been the catalyst for healing on so many levels in my own personal and spiritual journey.

When you attend a retreat environment it is an opportunity for you to completely remove yourself from the outside world.

It is a chance for you to focus your attention on who you are and what it is in your life that lights you up, to recognise what your strengths are, to peel back all of your layers and to provide yourself with much needed compassion and kindness.

Like too many of us, we set out with the intention of introducing daily rituals and practices into our lives that will aid you in personal growth and overall wellbeing, but like all too many of you, your own needs are often placed at the bottom of your priority list.

When you attend a week long event you are giving yourself the unique opportunity to implement long lasting changes that you can then take back into your everyday life.

You do not go home the same person you were when you arrived.

There is nothing more rewarding than providing space for women to come together to bond, to grow and to rediscover themselves.

Blessings
Kerryn
xxx

 

Handing Your Heart to Others

Let’s talk about forgiveness.

Along my journey there has been a huge pull to bring my family, my partner and those close around me alongside (because I was feeling ALL the love and why wouldn’t I want that for them too?)

In doing so, I was trying to change those around me. Which then saw me fall back into the old processes of needing everything (and everyone) outside me to ‘make’ me happy.

What I’ve learnt is how you feel and how you respond to your own situation.

I had to accept that I am exactly where I need to be in any given moment.

What are you accepting and allowing into your life right now?